Posts Tagged ‘restrained’

Losing my favorite game.

I’m on a verge of crying. Or shouting, wherever feels more releasing.

‘I cannot do the same mistakes’, ‘I cannot keep making my friends as my ear to talk to’, ‘I cannot feel lazy’, ‘I cannot look ugly’, ‘I cannot be annoying’, ‘I’ll never find love’, ‘I don’t know what real love is’, ‘I cannot…’

ENOUGH!

I’m tired of reading overdramatic things and believing them as it is!

Yes, I think you’re wrong, completely wrong. And I believe that, yes, good writers can describe love. And darling, you’re being so histrionic – it have been only 3 months, suit yourself, please.

Call it whatever! Frustration by not being as happy? Yes, I believe is that too. But I cannot help to notice how theatrical seems what you’ve written.

And you know what? Life does not have ‘happily ever after’.

If you’re lost, please read this.

Why do you haunt me, why?

Argh, I was so damn happy this week, I took only a meager dream to unsettle me of my happiness.

I need someone to talk to, but I do not want to bother anyone.

Meh, in the end I’ll end up calling someone anyway.

Way to go.

Should I call an asylum?
~Vanny

Here She Comes Again.

You know when you feel that you have to do something, but you don’t know what it is?

And you become all agitated/anxious and you feel like restrained/imprisoned/claustrophobic because you have no idea of what it is, and in consequence, preventing you to do said ‘something’.

Yeah… That’s how I feel right now.

You want to scream, you want to shout, and you want to sing very loudly. But you can’t, since is past midnight.

That’s the prelude of my insomnia.

Wow, I could just write a song about it, that’s a nice title.

Anyway. I’m still paralyzed. Maybe that is what this is all about.

Just maybe…

Or I should just try to write, since the little obnoxious voice inside my head seems to agree that it’s all about making some improvement on my story, and I’ll feel much better if I just do it.

She could be right.

Actually, we both could be right.

Who cares?

…I do.

Having a screw loose,
~Vanny