And to think that I wrote some of these things about two years ago.
Sometimes the less you write, better.
[These are some posts on a very old blog.]
March 4th, 2008
.it just seems like everybody can be better than me,
.maybe i just need to hang out more.
“to understand this crazy world,
but you’re not gonna crack
no you’re never gonna crack
[...]
too late for solutions to solve in the setting sun
so run my baby run my baby run
life can be so cruel
don’t it astound you?
so when nothing seems too certain or safe
let it burn through you
you can keep it pure on the inside
and you know what you believe to be right
so you’re not gonna crack
no you’re never gonna crack
[...]
find out who you are before you regret it
because life is so short, there’s no time to waste it”
February 27th, 2008
’cause i thought i was the only one,
the only one to know how to be cool…
guess i was wrong.
but one day, i hope i can be better than everyone.
guess i’m still wrong.
.
i don’t know why i still think this way…
i wanted to say more, but it seems that i’ve calm down.
i need to distract,
stop thinking already.
i just need to sleep.
December 19th, 2007
i can’t sleep
i can’t scream
.go.to.sleep.already,folish.child.
…i can’t?
September 05, 2007
[they never meant to be together, so neither do i]
when the obvious becomes the nightmare
and the imagination the least likely
when the world stops
and there’s nothing more to thing about
no, the world has never stopped.
and the obvious was never possible either
nostalgias are my last joy.
surely I will not shine
[listening kagayaki from candidate for goddess OST]
~~~
I’m not exactly sad, I’m just thinking: ‘were the hell that creative me have gone?’.
Maybe she’s still here.
With love,
~Vanny
